The Lack of Intimacy Living with an Alcoholic Partner

 

No Intimacy With Your  Alcoholic Partner 

 

Yes, I'm going to talk about it...

The list is endless. Every time he drinks you cope with the blackouts, drunken rages, his depression,  mood swings, the lies, manipulation, his empty promises to stop drinking leaving you feeling disappointed and hopeless. defeated. Dreaming of a better life is just a pipedream!

The worst part of living with a functioning active alcoholic was my loneliness and isolation of living with the shame of my husband’s alcohol addiction and my family members and friends finding out about my secret life.

I lived in a spiralling nightmare and feared being judged if they knew what the reality of my life was really  like.

My loneliness included the painful lack of intimacy. All I could do was stand by and watch the love of my life slowly morph into someone I didn’t recognise.  His illness caused him to detach from me physically and emotionally. I  felt unattractive, unwanted and craved his love. In the end I became invisible to him.

Fast forward to now, I chose to stay with my husband and didn’t walk away from our marriage.  He’s nine years sober. We’re still building trust and getting to know each other again and embracing our new normal.

I  chose to get the help I needed to heal and start my own recovery journey

I chose to love him at a distance with compassion 

I chose to reclaim my strength, peace and happiness 

I chose to believe in my self worth 

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Lots of love and gratitude.

Sonia x x